Remember 911

I had to place something up today. Gratitude to those who signed the papers like I did. May we always stay strong to keep from someone's loved one being taken away too quick. Semper Fi to my brothers and sisters in the Marines and Oorah to the Army, Navy, Air Force, Coast Guard, and National Guard. No matter the difference of us, we'll stick together to protect our loved ones and heroes. Oorah!

Remember the past, to protect the future....

911 Remember

I had to place something up for those of the 911 attacks. Gratitude towards those who signed the papers like I did. I give no thanks to those who lost their lives, because they didn't give their lives for us it was taken from them. I hope that those who stand in the Armed Forces, as myself, will not let this happen again. Semper Fi to my brothers and sisters in the Marines. Oorah to those in the Army, Navy, Air Force, Coast Guard, and National Guard. No matter our differences, we shall stand together to protect people's loved ones and our own heroes. Oorah and Bless all those who fight for freedom and peace.

It happened about a month ago when one of my dear friends, Scarlett, declared that she wanted a boyfriend. She was the type to find maybe the right guy, but deep down just wanted her for her body. Most of the time, that would be her intent as well. This day though she told me she had had enough of not having a true relationship with someone, that she wanted a boyfriend. At the time I was also single, but quite fine with the idea. Two weeks ago she had finally gained a boyfriend who seems to care for her dearly. As both of us in a relationship and both finding out we need our 'guys' from time to time, a question popped up between us. Were these men that we thought so much about and couldn't get out of our heads our soul mates?

Who are these soul mates people say that's out there for us? And are they truly real?

To be quite honest I would love the idea of my current boyfriend being my soul mate. In fact I know many of us women and men would love the fact that our boyfriend or girlfriends were. How do we know? And of course how do we not know?
Another one of my friends, Topaz, ended her relationship with her boyfriend some time ago. Knowing from other friends, I knew she was going through the normal denial people have when they break up their "other half". She wondered if she had made the right choice and that she wasn't giving away her soul mate. She asked this even when she felt something was wrong between them both. I even asked her if she believed in having a soul mate out there somewhere. She told me she believed there was at least that one special person out there for us. Quite certain I say everyone has this same concept in their mind and heart. Undoubtedly when he called or texted her to take him back she wondered again if she was giving up her soul mate. If he thought they were meant to be together, should she have thought so to?
To have a soul mate, would you both have to believe it? Is it some kind of cosmic thing that binds us together as couples or partnerships? It's like those jobs we interview for. We have that deep down feeling that it is perfect for us, but don't pass the interview. We never get the job. Or perhaps we do receive that dream job we always fantasized about, yet it's never perfect. Relationships could be the same way. If it doesn't work out you move on and search for that other dream job, instead we sit and ponder if it was the right choice. We use that handy dandy pros and cons list. Even these lists don't work half the time.
I would admit I love the idea of having a soul mate, but the idea that if I do something wrong or not make the right time to find them seems almost ridiculous. If someone was my soul mate, wouldn't in time I would find this person? Wouldn't we both be able to think, "This is my soul mate, my one and only", without contemplating it? If someone was truly our soul mate wouldn't we not have that wondering feeling, little voice saying its wrong, or a hesitant feeling of our actions? Even so we still question it knowing it's not an absolute feeling. Perhaps it's one of the many reasons why we fall in love so fast.... in fear we won't find that special someone.
Anyone who does find that soul mate in the end, I congratulate them. Perhaps we do have that special someone, soul mate, or that other half. And also perhaps not all soul mates are our lovers either. Maybe just maybe our soul mate could be our sister, brother, or best friend.
To tell you the truth the only thing special I want from my soul mate, is that I can be myself around them anytime I want to and not feel ashamed or embarrassed.

It was the day before that I was standing in 'Hot Topic' that I saw one of the clerks dressed up in a street. I understood the joke of trying out this jacket along with a couple of other people in the store. Most of us thought it is quite funny watching him trying to undo the straps or walking around the store as if nothing was wrong. I noticed a couple of people though that didn't quite look amused. They looked pretty much horrified, well perhaps not that severe, but didn't seem pleased with our antics. As soon as he walked up to help them out, they left. A little question popped into my head...

Why do we judge people so quickly?

I know some people will say or defend themselves saying they don't judge others. Well we all do whether it is on appearance, acts, or others thoughts. There will always be someone we don't quite understand why they do what they do, so we judge them.
I remember going home to the county fair and seeing the regular prisoners of the country cleaning up all the trash cans within the fair. I even remembered seeing one of the them a couple of years before. I was sitting with my sister watching them clean up the fair at 6 am and saw someone jest at them. They didn't do anything of course. That's when my sister asked me why people treat others like that. We knew they weren't really criminals, probably had a DUI, traffic violations, small theft, or even caught with fraud. We knew our county jail wouldn't let murderers clean up a fair with small children and families. Yet they were still treated awful because they were wearing  the stripes.
We knew they did something wrong to get punished, but is that any justification to belittle them not knowing their past or reasons just because they were wearing something that many worse men and women have worn?
One of my reasonings of judging people is that we all want to be the higher ups. We want to be higher in the food chain or pyramid that we live in. For those that have lived near the bottom like I have, you fight to reach higher status. One way of feeling better about your status is to judge those that are less fortunate. We all do it. I will admit that I also judge some people because of what they have done in the past. Even in our history we show how much we judge people. In the past our forefathers judged anyone that was English during the Revolutionary War was the enemy. Anyway found with English clothing or some sort of affiliation with them were often punished for it. Men found at the wrong place and the wrong time were often feathered and tarred because they were judged of being the enemy. The same as during the mid-1800s when every Native American was accused of being the enemy as well. Due to their different skin color, practices, and culture they were considered freaks and a rival. People judged them of being an opponent without looking into how much they could of taught us of their culture or how to live off the land as they had for hundreds of years.
Yes, we Americans have been known to judge other people quite quickly because they weren't like us. Those who don't do the same as our society are judged of being a freak or monstrosity even at times. I mean look at poor Frankenstein's monster, worse judged creature of all time.
Do we really judge those who look, act, or talk differently than us because we don't know about them? Or the fact that we're scared to learn about it or to hear this change?
This is definitely one question I have no answer or conclusion for......

First on the table.

....I have a boyfriend at the moment. To help keep identities secret at the moment we'll call him "Mr. Carl". I've been dating him for about three weeks now. Everything is steady, we don't fight, we get along extremely well, and my friends like him a lot. Everything is going so smoothly.
I left for about a week to go home and found more fondness. I thought I felt something for him, but contemplated the reason....

Why do we fall in love so fast? 

I've fallen in love in the past and have gotten hurt from it. We all have had this happen to us once in our lifetime. We know it's a bad choice to jump right into it, but yet we still do it.
Do we really wish to have someone to care for us or for us to care for? I grew up in an environment where I had to care for animals. I fell in love with them like any child would for their dog, cat, or even goldfish. Unfortunately they were cattle, which meant in the end they would be sold to market. I would fall in love with these animals for the two years they lived, then watched them be sold. Every year I would endure this. I told myself I would always be careful with love after that. Yet here I am wondering if I love this man, yet so early.
Perhaps we want to be loved so quickly because we're afraid of being alone. Grant it most of us have good families, but it is not quite the same love you can share with another man or woman or an individual away from your original roots. Perhaps we could be scared of being left alone or having no one to call us when they miss us, to hold someone when we're scared, or to kiss someone goodnight before you go to bed every night.
It may just be human nature.
The romans and greeks were marrying by the time they were 13 or 14. They had full lives before most ever reached the age of 20. The Tudors in England were engaged to someone before they were even 10. They would know who they would marry for almost years before it ever even happened. Now and days people won't get married or commit to each other until they're past their late fifties.
My opinion is that we are scared of being alone. Being alone in the dark is frightening, not having to share memories with, not having someone or something to hold on when things get rough. We all hate to go through some things by ourselves. When we think we're close we aim for love.
13 years old, 15, 18, 25, 30, 45 or even higher to some....we all want some form of love. So when we see the chance we'll jump for it.

The only questions I know that are complete and full are math questions. These questions that I'm willing to ask and perhaps answer on my own won't have one answer. They'll be questions that need to be asked and should be discussed. In today's society we forget a lot of simple shit.
Let's just talk about it. What bothers us and what makes us happy, without being forced by someone who thinks they know.
So let the questions begin and conversation and opinion....

Not at all intimidating, right?